Everything happens for a reason.
Dunno where I heard about this before.
But it would make sense everytime something weird did happen so I'm guessing the person who came up with this "theory" should be damn famous cos such a simple sentence meant a hell lot of bullshit. I meant that in a good way. But of course somebody once questioned me "Why is there a need for anything to be either GOOD or BAD?"
Well fuck, how'd I know? Usually people would judge me and the stuff I did with either a "good" or a "bad" so how was I supposed to know?
Thats what I learned to do, judge with these 2 choices.
That's it. Thank you for tuning in.
Don't gag on your way out.
If you did, congratulations and have a splendid life.
If you didn't then
Fuck you. _l_
I'm just being random.
xoxo
With Love,
Babe <3.
About Me
- DivaBaoBei
- I crap alot.. I get all corny n emo sometimes but then I can burst out laughing suddenly and catch u off-guard LoL Love me, Love me not? Choose wisely =) However, sisters are important to me and yea i hate it whenever i get accused of stuff i've never done. There you go ^.^ Nice meetin ya heeheeee
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Blank.
After continuously staring into the computer screen, I thought perhaps it's time to put up some random post just to give this blog a bloody update.
There were many confessions and dirty little secrets revealed to me this week. Not necessarily bad, not necessarily good; not that of what I wanted to know, not what I didn't want to know.
They were things that would make you feel a little burnt whenever the sun was shining a little too strong and you were standing right underneath it.
I didn't know what to think, I felt shaky whenever it invaded my mind. Probably trying to digest it all at once and give it one small acceptance before dismissing it from my brain. So the only thing I thought I could try to help me get over it was to return to increase in consuming my little bad habit again, which was smoking. I was never a fan of doing so but it became an addiction. Sometimes it can make one happy. LOL.
I smile yet feel so empty,
I'm walking straight yet the road ahead is blurry,
I took a chance in this thing called life,
But never thought that it ended up to hurt me,
So I trusted what I felt because there are others in far worse conditions than me.
Why do we never get satisfied with the stuff we've got?
When it's over we usually regret what we're not.
Everybody matures through time,
Then comes relationship and how it could make a person so blind.
Looking back I was the type to runaway,
But the older I grew,
Courage taught me that I should stay.
I tried to shut down the past,
When I was naive and I thought that friendship would last.
She took my hands and told me everything was ok,
But she also turned her back on me,
And let our friendship sway.
I still remembered all the shit we've been through,
When she'd cover up for me for the bad stuff I did,
And I'd laugh cos as a friend I was cruel.
I like it whenever the wind caresses my face,
Cos I'd think of my family and the love they have for me,
And everything'd be ok,
Cos I know they loved me for me and they wouldn't want me to change.
So I wrote it in a short poem,
Hoping that in this way,
I could express my damned troubles away.
xoxo,
Babe.
There were many confessions and dirty little secrets revealed to me this week. Not necessarily bad, not necessarily good; not that of what I wanted to know, not what I didn't want to know.
They were things that would make you feel a little burnt whenever the sun was shining a little too strong and you were standing right underneath it.
I didn't know what to think, I felt shaky whenever it invaded my mind. Probably trying to digest it all at once and give it one small acceptance before dismissing it from my brain. So the only thing I thought I could try to help me get over it was to return to increase in consuming my little bad habit again, which was smoking. I was never a fan of doing so but it became an addiction. Sometimes it can make one happy. LOL.
I smile yet feel so empty,
I'm walking straight yet the road ahead is blurry,
I took a chance in this thing called life,
But never thought that it ended up to hurt me,
So I trusted what I felt because there are others in far worse conditions than me.
Why do we never get satisfied with the stuff we've got?
When it's over we usually regret what we're not.
Everybody matures through time,
Then comes relationship and how it could make a person so blind.
Looking back I was the type to runaway,
But the older I grew,
Courage taught me that I should stay.
I tried to shut down the past,
When I was naive and I thought that friendship would last.
She took my hands and told me everything was ok,
But she also turned her back on me,
And let our friendship sway.
I still remembered all the shit we've been through,
When she'd cover up for me for the bad stuff I did,
And I'd laugh cos as a friend I was cruel.
I like it whenever the wind caresses my face,
Cos I'd think of my family and the love they have for me,
And everything'd be ok,
Cos I know they loved me for me and they wouldn't want me to change.
So I wrote it in a short poem,
Hoping that in this way,
I could express my damned troubles away.
xoxo,
Babe.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Pondering... Thinking... Buffering ... 0%
LOL... Anywaysssss...
Was just wondering what's seriously important to me right now. Cos even though I can think of many stuff that I should take seriously, none of them made me feel like I should bother cos I feel so freakin' lazy right now. Yeah yeah... Its the middle of the semester and I'm still fooling around. Who am I kidding? I'm just afraid that I'd turn out to suck in my studies...
I'm moving out soon. To a house nearer college. Like, seriously near... More like opposite college haha... So I'd be pretty scheduled up soon, with the college urging us to appoint our advisors and scratching our heads off into thinking what subjects should we take next semester. This is silly. I'm so not settled yet. I still feel like a bozo and I think I'm too comfortable with my life that I just don't really care. Gosh I seriously need to wake up >.<
Mei mei, Wenni auntie and the cute cute me XD hohohooo (we took this INSIDE the KTM train)
The five white angels cos the 5 of us had matching white outfits that day Heheheee.. BUT JODIE WAS MISSING IN ACTION T.T sad.... sobs.... Miss u babehhhh
Wenni auntie + Me =P
Mei mei + Me =D
Jason mama + Me... Cute lehhhh =P
Edan papa + Me. >>> He look like uncle horh hohohohoo
The 5 of us... So sampat lorh... The whole day we were destroying cameras with our amazing taking picture abilities. *POINTS AT EDAN* he took the most pics =.= My phone is still Edan-infested, too many pics of him zzzz....
Apart from that, everyday felt awesome. fun fun fun fun!!!! The next time, Jodie has to seriously tag along. ~.~
signing off,
with love,
Your babe <3.
Was just wondering what's seriously important to me right now. Cos even though I can think of many stuff that I should take seriously, none of them made me feel like I should bother cos I feel so freakin' lazy right now. Yeah yeah... Its the middle of the semester and I'm still fooling around. Who am I kidding? I'm just afraid that I'd turn out to suck in my studies...
I'm moving out soon. To a house nearer college. Like, seriously near... More like opposite college haha... So I'd be pretty scheduled up soon, with the college urging us to appoint our advisors and scratching our heads off into thinking what subjects should we take next semester. This is silly. I'm so not settled yet. I still feel like a bozo and I think I'm too comfortable with my life that I just don't really care. Gosh I seriously need to wake up >.<
Mei mei, Wenni auntie and the cute cute me XD hohohooo (we took this INSIDE the KTM train)
The five white angels cos the 5 of us had matching white outfits that day Heheheee.. BUT JODIE WAS MISSING IN ACTION T.T sad.... sobs.... Miss u babehhhh
Wenni auntie + Me =P
Mei mei + Me =D
Jason mama + Me... Cute lehhhh =P
Edan papa + Me. >>> He look like uncle horh hohohohoo
The 5 of us... So sampat lorh... The whole day we were destroying cameras with our amazing taking picture abilities. *POINTS AT EDAN* he took the most pics =.= My phone is still Edan-infested, too many pics of him zzzz....Apart from that, everyday felt awesome. fun fun fun fun!!!! The next time, Jodie has to seriously tag along. ~.~
signing off,
with love,
Your babe <3.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Under My Painted Skin?... Or everybody else's?
I walked out of the cinema feeling as if everything was missing from this thing called "life". Painted Skin the movie was called. An epic love story, about sacrifice and simply just pure pure L.O.V.E.
I felt jealous. I felt green with anger and frustration that it reminded me of how lonely I was. I envied such deep love and I longed to taste it...
Undeniably, no matter how constant I've tried to lie to myself, I wasn't OK at that particular moment because I could feel that there were beads of tears gathering at the corner of my eyes, and seriously tried to blink them off before my fellow friends who were so caught up in discussing about the movie they forgot I was there notice that I was becoming emotional all of a sudden. Yes, yes, typical fakeness but you see, I failed even at that. After a few minutes of walking around the mall, I felt pretty sore. And probably due to not crying for quite some time, I just couldn't stand it any longer. Its as though they had their own minds into poring out of my eyes like some sort of a bloody waterfall...
Finally I simply walked off cos I felt that my presence would ruin the whole point of having fun... Sorry guys, but you guys didn't seem to notice I was there anyways...
Anyways it's that bit of part where I seriously need to rethink. Again, I could feel every jealousy on everyone that has ever had experience with love. Its not that I've never came across it, it's just that the relationships never last long enough for me to actually feel it and know what it is... Some people could adore some other people for years which I think is totally insane cos I dunno what or how that must've felt like. Conclusion is that I feel empty... It's just missing from my life.
I know I have to be open about this because not all is fair in love and war. So people, listen up. If you ever happen to drop by the cinema, check Painted Skin out. It's meaningful if you think deep into it you'd realize that love is not something you come across everyday while getting the groceries. =.=
Painted Skin is based on the same title short story from Liao Zhai Zhi Yi. The story is set in late Yuen Dynasty, at the time when demons and devils roam free. A fairy Shui Mei Ling who killed her lover 100 years ago turned into a demon, and constantly needs the heart and skin of man to maintain her beauty. As her time for reincarnation draws near, her last victim Wang Er Sheng turns out to be a descendant of the lover she killed, while his brother Wang Er Lang (Donnie Yen) is a ghostbusting master who is highly skilled, brave and smart
I felt jealous. I felt green with anger and frustration that it reminded me of how lonely I was. I envied such deep love and I longed to taste it...
Undeniably, no matter how constant I've tried to lie to myself, I wasn't OK at that particular moment because I could feel that there were beads of tears gathering at the corner of my eyes, and seriously tried to blink them off before my fellow friends who were so caught up in discussing about the movie they forgot I was there notice that I was becoming emotional all of a sudden. Yes, yes, typical fakeness but you see, I failed even at that. After a few minutes of walking around the mall, I felt pretty sore. And probably due to not crying for quite some time, I just couldn't stand it any longer. Its as though they had their own minds into poring out of my eyes like some sort of a bloody waterfall...
Finally I simply walked off cos I felt that my presence would ruin the whole point of having fun... Sorry guys, but you guys didn't seem to notice I was there anyways...
Anyways it's that bit of part where I seriously need to rethink. Again, I could feel every jealousy on everyone that has ever had experience with love. Its not that I've never came across it, it's just that the relationships never last long enough for me to actually feel it and know what it is... Some people could adore some other people for years which I think is totally insane cos I dunno what or how that must've felt like. Conclusion is that I feel empty... It's just missing from my life.
I know I have to be open about this because not all is fair in love and war. So people, listen up. If you ever happen to drop by the cinema, check Painted Skin out. It's meaningful if you think deep into it you'd realize that love is not something you come across everyday while getting the groceries. =.=
Painted Skin is based on the same title short story from Liao Zhai Zhi Yi. The story is set in late Yuen Dynasty, at the time when demons and devils roam free. A fairy Shui Mei Ling who killed her lover 100 years ago turned into a demon, and constantly needs the heart and skin of man to maintain her beauty. As her time for reincarnation draws near, her last victim Wang Er Sheng turns out to be a descendant of the lover she killed, while his brother Wang Er Lang (Donnie Yen) is a ghostbusting master who is highly skilled, brave and smart
Thursday, October 9, 2008
EXTRA! EXTRA! THIS JUST IN!!!
YES! gossip and of course, updates! =)
Lately, I let go. *grins*
Finally i did it... And this time I can truly believe it for myself. Like i said before, I ain't confessing nothing neither am I gonna hide it. Same goes for now I think... I couldn't confirm that my feelings for this asshole's completely gone but I can say that I'm not tortured by my own pain anymore and hell yeah I can breathe again. XD
Being around them bunch of goons have never felt so enjoyable before... After the holidays I got myself closer to dear babes Wenni BuBu, Jodie NehBu and Feon mei mei BuNeh hahahahaa...
Looks like we've got more stuff incommon than I thought we had.
One of them in particular, CAM-WHORING. Most of us love it and we intend to whore-out of the lines XD (mei mei wasn't here T.T)
Well, that seals it. Apart from walking on sunshine again, I also happen to be buried in mountains of assignments =.= It just never stops...
Argghhhh!!!........... And I missed Ms. Mary's class today. I think I will die next week. So be it. That's something new to worry about... @.@
With Lovessss <3333
Your babehhhh NehNeh. XD
Lately, I let go. *grins*
Finally i did it... And this time I can truly believe it for myself. Like i said before, I ain't confessing nothing neither am I gonna hide it. Same goes for now I think... I couldn't confirm that my feelings for this asshole's completely gone but I can say that I'm not tortured by my own pain anymore and hell yeah I can breathe again. XD
Being around them bunch of goons have never felt so enjoyable before... After the holidays I got myself closer to dear babes Wenni BuBu, Jodie NehBu and Feon mei mei BuNeh hahahahaa...
Looks like we've got more stuff incommon than I thought we had.
One of them in particular, CAM-WHORING. Most of us love it and we intend to whore-out of the lines XD (mei mei wasn't here T.T)Well, that seals it. Apart from walking on sunshine again, I also happen to be buried in mountains of assignments =.= It just never stops...
Argghhhh!!!........... And I missed Ms. Mary's class today. I think I will die next week. So be it. That's something new to worry about... @.@
With Lovessss <3333
Your babehhhh NehNeh. XD
Is It You?
And from the holidays, I'm back! =P
Updating what I should update, and what all of you have been waiting for...
Well, Raya was... hmmm.... Interesting =) Although, it was great to have seen many of my cousins around, after a few years of having them all around Malaysia. It just came to me that I am officially a "grown up" in the whole big picture, considering those younger than me also sem to have many duties around my house in kampung. Apparently they asctually do the housework ~.~ (I know, I know, my parents spoil me..) But hey, I did my share of the work while I was there ok? =.= I was practically a living dishwasher during the open house zzzz...
Anyhoooo.......... Here are some of the cute little things the kids and I shared doing.. Of course! Camwhoring! =P hahahaha...
My baby... Isn't she adorable? ^^ bububububuu.. anggugu...
Hey me me!!! I want it! I want it!!!! *LOL*
OK, is this how I should pose? *wink wink* LOL...
Ooohhh.. Ahhhh.... @.@
And then, there's me and my fellow vain cousins. HAHAHAHA the kampung chics XD
United we stand, divided you can kiss our asses =D
Sis, you look retarded =X hohohoo
My other retarded sis... Believe it or not, she's the mother of 2 adorable kids... My nieces XD
Nieces! Heheheee... too cute <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiH7yH3fP14pZ0s94pepdcYlXnN4tYQd9JJ6mDlz5bO70za48MdDY7g7nN9BeRUPtBjxuiBsMpe10_mgN2_UrzXQkZfauyHv5Vtnw6LYQ0_T4_EU_PXc7ex84qBbWGzhU13FHijoDf7HXQN/s1600-h/~Photo~0370.jpg">
That's me and my daddy LOL my daddy rocks XD yeah, I'ma daddy's girl =P
Mummy mummy mummy~~~ Wheeee~ we were in sleeping dresses and still hot =P BLEHHH
Me and me bro... LOL he's got pet pet hair! =.=
~THE END~ *BOO!*
Heeheee... Have fun tuning in the more family oriented side of me (i seriously dunno what that means, don't even care) hohohooo...
With Lot'sa Love,
Your Babe <3.
Updating what I should update, and what all of you have been waiting for...
Well, Raya was... hmmm.... Interesting =) Although, it was great to have seen many of my cousins around, after a few years of having them all around Malaysia. It just came to me that I am officially a "grown up" in the whole big picture, considering those younger than me also sem to have many duties around my house in kampung. Apparently they asctually do the housework ~.~ (I know, I know, my parents spoil me..) But hey, I did my share of the work while I was there ok? =.= I was practically a living dishwasher during the open house zzzz...
Anyhoooo.......... Here are some of the cute little things the kids and I shared doing.. Of course! Camwhoring! =P hahahaha...
My baby... Isn't she adorable? ^^ bububububuu.. anggugu...
Hey me me!!! I want it! I want it!!!! *LOL*
OK, is this how I should pose? *wink wink* LOL...
Ooohhh.. Ahhhh.... @.@And then, there's me and my fellow vain cousins. HAHAHAHA the kampung chics XD
United we stand, divided you can kiss our asses =D
Sis, you look retarded =X hohohoo
My other retarded sis... Believe it or not, she's the mother of 2 adorable kids... My nieces XD
Nieces! Heheheee... too cute <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiH7yH3fP14pZ0s94pepdcYlXnN4tYQd9JJ6mDlz5bO70za48MdDY7g7nN9BeRUPtBjxuiBsMpe10_mgN2_UrzXQkZfauyHv5Vtnw6LYQ0_T4_EU_PXc7ex84qBbWGzhU13FHijoDf7HXQN/s1600-h/~Photo~0370.jpg">
That's me and my daddy LOL my daddy rocks XD yeah, I'ma daddy's girl =P
Mummy mummy mummy~~~ Wheeee~ we were in sleeping dresses and still hot =P BLEHHH
Me and me bro... LOL he's got pet pet hair! =.=
~THE END~ *BOO!*Heeheee... Have fun tuning in the more family oriented side of me (i seriously dunno what that means, don't even care) hohohooo...
With Lot'sa Love,
Your Babe <3.
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