2009.

So... It's a new year, right? I know I was supposed to blog about this last week and avoid not updating but many stuff have caught my attention. For instance, people keep questioning my new year's resolution. Seems like an important thing to do ( to have a resolution). But in my mind, all I can think of was to straighten out my education and the ever so bad relationship I'm having with my parents now because I brought a huge pile of shit "home" with me from Kuala Lumpur. Fuck right?

Anyhooo, I guess we all have different aims and directions we wanna move forward to, since it's a new year, everybody wants to start over being something new and being satisfied with this thing called "life" once more eh? Count me in, for I've been an asshole eversince high school and spank me as hard as you might but I think this is gonna take time for me to get used to the idea of being an obedient daughter as well as an acing student. Please slap me, I've grown a little mature in the head! Aaaaaaaaaaaaa!............................. =.=

So the new year's was celebrated here, in Sunway with Wenni, Jason and Meimei, while the rest went missing LOL. It was fun and I had time to recollect the fun part of it, at the stroke of midnight people were sparying each other with party sprays and what not, it was obscenely fun. It's amazing how we all get to socialize in this circle of community and have fun despite being strangers to one another. Whatever it was, it was really fun. The crowd was awesome and despite past unlucky events, I believe I could make the best out of 2009. This time, I'd need to wake up and get myself good grades =) Pray for me and pray for yourselves, please. We all need hope and luck as much as we can get.

Things I need to complete before the end of 2009:

1. Upgrade my CGPA to at least an average B.
2. Learn how to control my money spending (I don't just spend money, I flush them down the toilet =.=)
3. Appreciate my family. Cos it gets fucked up everytime I go back to visit them.
4. Loose 10 pounds. (Fingers crossed!)
5. Find that someone... XD You knwo what I mean (Fingers crossed in complicated gestures and in all directions cos I hope it's Jesse McCartney HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA)

Well... I guess I consider myself well off. I'm glad that I'm still breathing though there are times when I wanna drown myself or bang my head on the wall and die. The truth is, let's face it, we're all in the same boat so let's just keep our heads up, chill and screw the hell out of this life since we're being screwed by it! =D But whenever the going gets tough, don't forget to breathe, at the same time appreciate every breath you take. Life's too short and many things are out there to be discovered, man.










With Love,
xoxoxoxo Your Babe. <3

The Next Flight "Home".

I've got 2 homes, currently. The one that I'm in right now is not a comfortable place for me to be in, considering I brought a pile of shitty results home for my dad. My parents are now mentally torturing me by ignoring me and occasionally taking out their anger on me by pissing the hell out of me most of the time. It really bloody hurts but oh-so-help me I'm still breathing ain't I? sigh.

Tonight I shall depart from this place though I have to admit I'd miss it alot. Especially, my idiotic friends. I must say, I've never thought about how much people actually care about individuals though they're not really close in terms of friendship. Last night I believe I gained another good friend. I've always thought of the guy as an asshole who prefers to disturb and make jokes out of girls especially me. But... He was a close friend of Nicole's so... whatever, eh? LOL. And, above all, HE COOKS. Like, seriously, the guy's a chef, man! I bet he's still struggling to find his one true talent and learning how to master it. Well, good luck pal =) I totally forgot to thank him for the late night dinner. >>>> Thank you, monkey! ;P

My Nicole. This stupiak only knows how to be a fish. Her one true talent.

Hey... Ouch... MY EYES!!!! =.=

We were Malay girls on special occasions and weirdly retarded Chinese people on normal days?? I seriously do not know what's happening here =.=

Woohoooo..... Look who I bumped into here! Joy!!!! My biatch =P hehehe

My Kimmie!!! Babe, don't be shy, please show us your camel face hahahahahaa..

The birthday girl, Jill! LOL. Now that she's 21 AND TOTALLY LEGAL, perhaps it's time SHE brought us to a journey in a club, eh? XD

Look!!! I gained another baby!!! Hahaha the little cute "cat thing", also a new addition in Jill's home. Do not be fooled by this picture, he bites. No, seriously... He does.

There's more but I'm too lazy to post anymore up hehe. I'm gonna miss this place. Looking forward to see Nicole again next year in January, she's coming down to KL for a visit and hell yeah! We'll be having some serious fun. But of course, there's that academic thing I need to complete and get my track back on. Pray for me, will ya? =) Thanks.

With Love,
Your Babe. <3

A Flight Back Home.

Running from every situation. That’s what I’ve been doing these past few weeks. I dreaded the day my academic results would finally arrive because then I’d have to say bye bye to freedom and joy, hello to grounded for life. This is awfully pathetic and I’m bearing with this until the day I’d step my feet onto Kuala Lumpur grounds again.

Never have I wished so hard that time would pass on as quick as it can so that I could at last leave this stupid place. I’ve been counting on the clock each day as if I’m catching an invisible fly throughout a rapid growing time line, it’s like I’m using a time machine and chasing each second desperately. Too bad though, my poor dear old godsis Nicole would miss me a lot (LOL). I cant’s help it, you know? I feel like I’m in prison already just staying home and look like a decoration statue here. What are my activities again? Eat, sleep, watch television (the rather amusing curricular of course), (here comes the ugly part) do the laundry, iron the clothes, basically house chores and make sure my brother doesn’t die of hunger due to playing too much computer that he forgets to eat.

In other words, I’m starting to miss my crazy loveable buddies back there.

Wenni auntie: Bubu, your whole life is seen as a big joke, and you would definitely put a sun into gloomy days. Whenever you get angry, your face looks like a puffer fish with rabbit teeth, but believe me, you have the most distinguished personality in the whole of our band of “Lapsap Taylor’s Gang” of friends. Muacksss… I miss you. T.T Can’t wait to get back there and hang out like how we always used to.

Feon MeiMei: BuNeh, you are the cutest little thing ever. Sometimes when you ask stupid questions, I feel like feeding you with a slipper than milk. My sweet little daughter, my caring and beautiful friend. Don’t get raped please (choi choi choi) cos you’re really cute. If anyone woulda dare to bully you… We will send Wenni (with no make up) to scare him/her. If that doesn’t work then always remember, I’ll be there. =)

Jodie SotSot: NehBu, you took care of my babies bibi and kiki, I feel all grateful towards your help and kindness. Truly, you are a person any friend could count on. You care and never fail to share your gossip with us. And from what I heard, you are the president of the gossip gang? LOL. I have to admit that’s seriously funny, man. Have fun in Japan and don’t forget our souvenirs!!! (hohohohohohoooo~)

Jason Mama: I miss your lapsap loud voice. Yerrr.. er xin =.= Later you think I’m confessing to you?? Sei mama, don’t you miss me?? >.< la ="P">

Edan Papa: No matter how lapsap and “niang niang qiang” you are, you will always be lapsap and niang niang qiang egg egg. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA… Seeing you sad and down is like a pain in my ass. And so you have earned your title as the “Emo King”. Cheer up, man, stuff happens, nobody could avoid bad things from happening and we all go through the same pain, perhaps in different situations, asshole. =) Muacksss.

And so concludes the love letters to the bunch of people. I must say, when I was there, I felt desperate to get back here. But now that I’m here, I seriously feel like getting my ass back there. This is… extremely retarded. There goes my life in Miri.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh JUST SHOOT ME!

xoxoxo

With Lotsa' Love (since I don't got many here),

Your Babe <3.

Letter To The Chairman of Morons.

Dear Mr. Stupid,

Hi. I just looked through some stuff in the net and came across pictures of you. Suddenly I’d recall about how much I used to like you. It’s as though the feeling’s rushing back into my veins.

However, as you and I both know how fragile the current situation is, there’s nothing left for me to say. Instead, I could only silently watch and observe whatever that’s happening. Sadly enough though because the only way to let this slip away for me is by typing this awfully lame piece for my own satisfaction. LOL.

You must think I am an idiot. Or a person who is mentally incapacitated. For sure, I am. Everybody is. Even you now, you who are reading this post I wrote just because you’re a bloody busy-body with no life =). Haha to you, lamer. But since you’re here, let’s continue now, shall we? ^^

Anyways… My dearest Mr. Stupid, stop being such a fucking gully go happy charmer. It’s bad for your being, health, reputation and most of all, bad for all the girls and boys. It’s hard not to fall for a charmer. Somebody could end up being hurt. Or worse, hearts can break into uncountable pieces. Who is there to blame for? People will start blaming themselves for the feelings they hold. Some might even resort to suicide because they can’t cope with stuff that’s been going on. Well mostly idiots do that. Idiots who happen to put their brains somewhere near their assholes, then end up shitting all their intellectuals out just cos they fell in “L.O.V.E.” and dunno how to deal with it. Those people, I might add, are seriously fucking stupid. They do not deserve a life. So what? Everybody’s got problems. We’re facing shit everyday and we’re considered fortunate enough to have 3 or more meals a day. Some people just don’t appreciate this basic necessity in life. What are we here for? To be a victim of how we feel? We all feel we sacrifice a lot and think we’re high and mighty than the rest when the truth is we’re all amateurs. Do you deserve a medal? Cos you’ve sacrificed your feelings for something that’s not even worth a shit? Well congratulations, here’s your token of golden shinny medal with lot’sa middle fingers pointing at you. The real world, baby, nothing is as easy as it seems. You turn around, everything is phony. You’re surrounded by hypocrites and lies that you can practically read from the palm of your hand. But then you play along, pretending to be just another idiot and continue with the game. Because you’re either lazy or scared to confront knowing that the chances of winning for you is like having George W. Bush as the president of the United States again.

So it all falls back to consciousness. Are you awake? Have you woken up from that small small lousy self of yours? Are you guilt-free now, knowing that there might be a few number of idiots just wasting their time and lives away just cos they have feelings for you? I for one know that I am. I’m currently wasting my time here, typing all this bullshit out when I could be doin something better with my life like studying since the finals are coming up, or I could just waste all this time doing some good deed like shit in my pants or something. Do you see how irrelevant you are? You’re nothing but a sick, pathetic little nut-head and the earth happens to hate you.

Now, now, don’t cry. Don’t hate me. Despise me, pretty please. Cos I know all about the mind games you’re trying to pull. You, you, you and YOU. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA (evil hysteric laugh).

I shall have your meat sliced into thin layers of bacon, your bones decorated in my living room, your head as my personal punching bag, your skin sewed into a fine wallet and your blood as garnish for wine in a fancy dinner party I shall throw in the near future. HELL YEAH!

With lot’sa hugs before you rot in hell and die with a thousand agony,
Xoxoxo
Me the sexy babe <3.

Tagged... by Eeeeeeva =.=

Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
I was tagged by Eeeeeeeeva aka the only female robot (Wall-E's girlfriend) I know in ADP so far. I tagged Nicole, Dang, SON SHELLA, twinneh Karlynn =P and Wenni (lol the crazy sakkais)...

1st : What's your name?
Sarah.

2nd : How old are you?
18 and smokin hot hohohooo =D

3rd : What are three electronics you can't live without?
My cellphone, Notebook and Air-cond.

4th : Are you amazing?
WTF? HELL YEAH.

5th : What is the brand of the phone you are using?
Samsung.

6th : What colour is your phone?
Silverish blue? lol. Not a favourite but =) I'd love my phone even if it dropped into a toilet bowl full of pee (litterally).

7th : Have you slept in school before?
Yes. But the kids were damn noisy so i force slept myself. =.=

8th : How long are you online in one day?
No idea never kept track of that.

9th : How would you describe yourself?
... Not to self-boost or anything but I can be a bitch most of the time haha.. So bear with me =) I do not try to be sexy cos its just the way I am. WE'RE ALL HOTTTT N SMOKINNN LADIESSSSSS XD
10th : What's your favourite topic to talk about?
SITC if ya know what I mean ;) Nicole, I know you do haha...

11th : Which teacher do you like?
MISS CHEW!!! MRS. SINGH!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH

12th : Who do you think is the most handsome in your class?
Arh? Got leng zai meh? Never notice...

13th : Who are you currently aiming on?
Chris Brown, Jesse McCartney and any other hot guy which passes my way.

14th : Do you know a lot of your sibling's secrets?
Yes. My brother has a girlfriend =P And he's only 14 =.=

15th : How do you rate your sibling?
Lapsap.

16th : Is your sibling gorgeous?darn gorgeous!

17th : Do you judge people?
I guess...

18th : Do you run?
Run? Run from what?

19th : Are you lazy to tag people?
YES. EXTREMELY.

20th : Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
My CSCI101 Bussiness Presentation group member.

21st : What's 2 + 2?
=.= 4 la..

22nd : Who's your idol?
Britney Spears, Ashlee Simpson, Paris Hilton and Carrie Underwood...?

23rd : Are you a monster?
Yes.

24th : Do you play with Barbie dolls?
Yes, I used to love Barbie dolls.

25th : What was the last movie you watched?
Madagascar II Escape to Africa.

26th : What do you think about your English?
Fluently retarded.

27th : What do you think about your Bahasa Malaysia?
Cacat macam orang gila.

28th : Who do you hate?
Ji bai po.

29th : Do you love yourself?
Yes.

30th : Blurt out 5 random words.
blah, nehneh, bubu, fuck, LOL.

THIS WAS SO LAME =.= ... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I Am Pathetic.

Amazingly, I caught myself once more in a shallow fucked up situation. I didn't know what was more pathetic. The fact that I cried in major public; my crazy hormones flying all over the place which in turn made me feel so frustrated with everything around me; the finals and how I'm still so raw about what's happening and how I'm gonna pass it; or the fact that someone wanted to borrow me money because of how pathetic my bloody pathetic situation is and further more enhance my pathetic-ness.
Figures... How I could feel so much when all that happened was merely a "dispute" in my ATM card. But of course, because of that, I'm b.r.o.k.e. with maybe less than 50cents in my pursue. Yippie...! I'm the happiest young lady in the world, I could just feel my heart tingling with joy and clenched fists.
Suddenly something hit me painfully hard in the heart. I missed my daddy. I missed my mummy. I have been depending on them so much financially eversince I've been living alone. So far I haven't done any shit to repay their deeds. What frustration meant to them? And what it means to me? There's a big gap right there. The thing is, my daddy have been constantly teaching me about this thing called life. Through his emotions, cognitive and most importantly, his most valuable - experiences. Whatever my parents have been through, I salut. I'd never understand the exact same confusions, but I'd know for sure that I can distinguish them through mummy's and daddy's eyes.
I love you, Daddy.
I love you, Mummy.
I shall cherish this life. For better or for worse, for everything that I have felt, am feeling or will be feeling in future, for all the little things that would alter my emotions, for any other things that would change my life. For now, for always, for as long as I remember the legacy of you, my mother and father, who have brought me into this world. Beautiful, talented, strong both physically and mentally, challenging, prepared, confident and still learning all in my own way. There are yet so many things for me to observe and relate to in this world, for it is too big. Mayhap I might feel a little lost at times (or most of the time), yet I long for success, for a future as someone who could contribute not just to myself, but to you; to make a small difference in this world; it doesn't matter, as long as I could reach that tiny step, I would die a happy woman in my later years.

With Love and still growing up,
Your Babe <3.