Forest Gump.

It's been awhile since I've been emotionally touched by a movie I'd randomly see. Have you ever heard of a movie by Tom Hanks with the title of this post?


Forest Gump. A beautiful, unique piece of work; such fine actors and actresses accompanied by a spectacular storyline, amazed and touched every inch of my soul. It did, by the way, sent shivers down my spine. I wish I was more like Forest, innocent and never strays away too far from what he's supposed to think. Then I realized that no matter how much you've gained in life, though on the surface you'd portray happiness, deep down in your little tiny heart you're never satisfied. Humans - we're never satisfied with what we have. It's just the way we are.

If someone wasn't selfish enough, nobody would be labelled as "too poor". If someone could've just gave something, they wouldn't even have to come up with the word "war". If somebody could've lent a helping hand, then nobody would be feeling a little "lost"...

I couldn't see the outline of my life. I've got big dreams but nothing to reach them, yet. Because I'm such a liar that I feel scared to believe that I could do it. What if everything I've ever wanted to do just turned out as a big fat lie to myself? What if I was thrown out by my own dreams and fell into some place where nobody could save me and not even myself?

I hope things would turn out as they should, and I hope the world will always spin around in a circle. Cos if it would spin in complicated ways and turned all topsy turvey, I sure don't want to be the first to fall.

If you haven't watched this, please do search for it. I can tell you that it's worth while. Give yourself some brain washing sessions and I do hope things would work out for you.

This man is brilliant. Tom Hanks (Forest Gump, 1994.)

With love,
xoxo.

Should I Still Be Trying?

Being in ADP for 3 semesters since last year is not exactly something I couldn't handle. I admit, I fucked up all my semesters, nearly including the one I'm currently in. However, I've disciplined myself not to skip ANY classes (sorry Mr. Izwan, perhaps skipping a few classes of Islamic Studies is inevitable for me, I've always hated this bloody subject since high school) and obeyed with my parents' advice.

Today I was a few minutes late for my CHEM101 class. The moment I stepped into the 12th floor hallway I realized that if I were to knock on the classroom door and attend the class then getting a spicy scolding from Ms. Bessie would be a fucked up way to start my day.
At this point, being the fucked up person as I already am (takes time to change, OK?), would rather choose to ignore the consequences that I might never be accepted back into college if I failed this sem again.

I mean seriously though, can't a girl just chill? Plus I was sitting at the nearest cafe doing some
Psychology revision cos I was going to have a test about it later on. I thought I did pretty well for the test and I'm feeling good about it. All thanks to the time I had during the whole CHEM101 period. Right now I know what you must be thinking.

"Fuck la Sarah, you should've attended the class even though you were late and you should've studied for the test earlier la. You stupid idiot!"

WELL FUCK YOU. =P

The best part of the story is that I'm sitting in the library right now typing this new post because I am pissed. Pissed at what? You must be asking.

Well, my dear friends, I am pissed at the attendence marks given to me for Chemistry classes. Fucking retarded piece of crap I've got 3 missed lessons posted up on the school's website when I've only skipped like 1 class? Hell yeah I get my ass up for classes every freaking day and yet some people percieve me to be transparent? Can't they see me sitting in class everyday?? FUCK ADP. Lies! ALL LIES!!! I ATTENDED ALL MY CLASSES BITCH!

Well I'm getting this all sorted out when class resumes next week. Why the hell does this happen during a weekend eve? Am I not trying hard enough? Well I know I haven't but I'm not as fucked up as I look or act OK????????? Geez... This is giving me a heart attack. Where is liberty when you need it?


Not giving any love today.
Bye~ <3

Brave.

I've never expected sympathy,
I've never learned to lean on nobody,
Yet lately it feels so differently,
Obviously everybody needs somebody.

When you don't know who to trust,
Rely too much on your lust,
You realize you need help,
You don't want to but desperately, it's a must,
Without it your world turns to dust.

I reached out for the final cry for help,
It's disappointing when all you get is a slap,
But you tell yourself, "Hey stupid, don't you cry!",
Just stand back up and never say goodbye.

The true confession is that we're pathetic,
We convince ourselves that miraculously there'll be magic,
Then chill around and try to forget it.

So everyday I force myself to face the day,
Deep down I know we all feel the same,
Though the journey would sometimes sway us away,
I know for sure I could be brave.


Xoxoxo. <3

Lately.

It's been a whole damn month since I've updated. My apologies, fellow mates. The ship I've been boarding sank halfway through the journey across South China sea. LOL.
27th January - the day I was born. 24th January - the night my dearest friend Nicole and I traveled upwards Penang, my father's hometown to celebrate CNY.
We hitched a ride with my aunt and yes the journey was very tiring... I nearly lost my mind when there wasn't even a second I could take to steal a bloody smoke. I felt like a retarded Llama.
After 6 agonizing hours, we got off Juru toll where my cousin picked us up. It's been like.. seriously a year since I saw my dad's family so it was sort of awkward when we got off my aunt's car and hugging with those people. Like duh... social social ok?
It was so fun back in Penang. Undeniably, I felt the happiest there. With my poor cousin YK being my very own "Ahmad" =P and giving me a beautiful butterfly pendant for my birthday present. Thank you, gor, muackssss love you so much <3. face="times new roman">


Fishes swimming under the sea. LOL

The whole bunch of Patrick Nicole bought during our trip all around Penang. DAMN PATRICKS. We actually went hunting around for them =.= My legs still feel shaky due to excessive walking. LOL.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.... Don't you feel like you could drown in them??? Fuck.

Gor Gor was our first victimized "model" for some of the Patricks we bought. HAHA! Gor you look so cute with that thing there =P

Vain people take vain pictures. Taken the night just before our departure back to KL.

And so, the holiday in Penang ended just like that. I'd love to remember the experience always. Can't wait to get my ass back there in March =) I've got like a 3 day holiday and I'm grabbing that chance. Wait for me!!!

Gor gor missed me and Nicole so much that after 2 days of returning back to KL he called me up to tell me that he's coming down to KL with his friends. zzz. I was shocked yet touched. Happy to have him around and I think I havent had a decent nap for 1 week. Last couple of days after Nicole left did I have sufficient rest. I must say I'ma miss my babe. Love you lots. Hope time will come when we could really experience LIFE together. New York, babehhh... Don't get pregnant too early arh =.= Fucking cucuk you with kayu balak then you know. LOL

So most of the stuff I wanted to say, have been said. Thank you for visiting my rusty blog. =)
PENANG PENANG PENANG FEVER!!!!!!!!!

xoxoxo,
With Love,
Your Babe. <3

2009.

So... It's a new year, right? I know I was supposed to blog about this last week and avoid not updating but many stuff have caught my attention. For instance, people keep questioning my new year's resolution. Seems like an important thing to do ( to have a resolution). But in my mind, all I can think of was to straighten out my education and the ever so bad relationship I'm having with my parents now because I brought a huge pile of shit "home" with me from Kuala Lumpur. Fuck right?

Anyhooo, I guess we all have different aims and directions we wanna move forward to, since it's a new year, everybody wants to start over being something new and being satisfied with this thing called "life" once more eh? Count me in, for I've been an asshole eversince high school and spank me as hard as you might but I think this is gonna take time for me to get used to the idea of being an obedient daughter as well as an acing student. Please slap me, I've grown a little mature in the head! Aaaaaaaaaaaaa!............................. =.=

So the new year's was celebrated here, in Sunway with Wenni, Jason and Meimei, while the rest went missing LOL. It was fun and I had time to recollect the fun part of it, at the stroke of midnight people were sparying each other with party sprays and what not, it was obscenely fun. It's amazing how we all get to socialize in this circle of community and have fun despite being strangers to one another. Whatever it was, it was really fun. The crowd was awesome and despite past unlucky events, I believe I could make the best out of 2009. This time, I'd need to wake up and get myself good grades =) Pray for me and pray for yourselves, please. We all need hope and luck as much as we can get.

Things I need to complete before the end of 2009:

1. Upgrade my CGPA to at least an average B.
2. Learn how to control my money spending (I don't just spend money, I flush them down the toilet =.=)
3. Appreciate my family. Cos it gets fucked up everytime I go back to visit them.
4. Loose 10 pounds. (Fingers crossed!)
5. Find that someone... XD You knwo what I mean (Fingers crossed in complicated gestures and in all directions cos I hope it's Jesse McCartney HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA)

Well... I guess I consider myself well off. I'm glad that I'm still breathing though there are times when I wanna drown myself or bang my head on the wall and die. The truth is, let's face it, we're all in the same boat so let's just keep our heads up, chill and screw the hell out of this life since we're being screwed by it! =D But whenever the going gets tough, don't forget to breathe, at the same time appreciate every breath you take. Life's too short and many things are out there to be discovered, man.










With Love,
xoxoxoxo Your Babe. <3

The Next Flight "Home".

I've got 2 homes, currently. The one that I'm in right now is not a comfortable place for me to be in, considering I brought a pile of shitty results home for my dad. My parents are now mentally torturing me by ignoring me and occasionally taking out their anger on me by pissing the hell out of me most of the time. It really bloody hurts but oh-so-help me I'm still breathing ain't I? sigh.

Tonight I shall depart from this place though I have to admit I'd miss it alot. Especially, my idiotic friends. I must say, I've never thought about how much people actually care about individuals though they're not really close in terms of friendship. Last night I believe I gained another good friend. I've always thought of the guy as an asshole who prefers to disturb and make jokes out of girls especially me. But... He was a close friend of Nicole's so... whatever, eh? LOL. And, above all, HE COOKS. Like, seriously, the guy's a chef, man! I bet he's still struggling to find his one true talent and learning how to master it. Well, good luck pal =) I totally forgot to thank him for the late night dinner. >>>> Thank you, monkey! ;P

My Nicole. This stupiak only knows how to be a fish. Her one true talent.

Hey... Ouch... MY EYES!!!! =.=

We were Malay girls on special occasions and weirdly retarded Chinese people on normal days?? I seriously do not know what's happening here =.=

Woohoooo..... Look who I bumped into here! Joy!!!! My biatch =P hehehe

My Kimmie!!! Babe, don't be shy, please show us your camel face hahahahahaa..

The birthday girl, Jill! LOL. Now that she's 21 AND TOTALLY LEGAL, perhaps it's time SHE brought us to a journey in a club, eh? XD

Look!!! I gained another baby!!! Hahaha the little cute "cat thing", also a new addition in Jill's home. Do not be fooled by this picture, he bites. No, seriously... He does.

There's more but I'm too lazy to post anymore up hehe. I'm gonna miss this place. Looking forward to see Nicole again next year in January, she's coming down to KL for a visit and hell yeah! We'll be having some serious fun. But of course, there's that academic thing I need to complete and get my track back on. Pray for me, will ya? =) Thanks.

With Love,
Your Babe. <3